Thoughts on being a senior.

I have never been a writer, nor will I ever claim to be, but sometimes I have thoughts/feelings/emotions that I want to write down...so here we are.

I write this as a sit alone in my living room. My two roommates are asleep (considering it is close to 1:00am). There is nothing but silence, and the sound of my typing, around me. It is moments like tonight when I get lost in my thoughts and when I ponder about my present and my future.

I am a senior in college. I am a senior at THE University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill.

Where has the time gone?

These past 3 years have been filled with joy, pain, sorrow... College, for me, was better than high school in a lot of ways, but it was also worse in some ways too.
     In high school I played sports...I acted in plays...I did all of the things I loved to do that simply went away when I came to college. I no longer participated in sports (unless you count the random intramural game here and there), and I never got involved in shows. I have helped out with shows (costuming, props, publicity, etc), but I have not acted in anything and acting is what I love. Have I been missing out?
     On the other hand, college has been filled with some of the most amazing people that I have been blessed with meeting. I wouldn't say I was popular in high school, or in college for that matter, but I feel more accepted in college than I ever did in high school. I feel like I am able to be true to myself and explore who I am supposed to be without being judged. College was the much needed step I was hoping for to help me redefine myself and become who I know I could be.

So there you have it. I was more involved in activities in high school, but I became more true to myself and my personhood (is that a word?) in college. It appears you have to give up some things to propel yourself forward to where you know you need to be.

But, you know, now I'm ready for the next jump. Most people are scared for graduation and the idea of working/living in the real world, and in some ways I am, but for the most part I am ready. However, I am going to cherish the time I have left. I know it will go faster than I could ever imagine.

So here is to the last few months of my college career. Here's to the last few months of making the most of my time at Carolina. Here's to living in the moment.