The Single Life..

You know - I have a lot of thoughts when it comes to my love life...or for those who know me, my lack thereof...

I sometimes wonder why I am single.
But mostly I wonder why I've been single for so long...

Don't get me wrong. I don't need a man. It's not like I can't function without one...but sometimes it's just nice to have someone. It's nice to have somebody to talk to. To hang out with. To say goodnight to before you go to sleep. To go on dates with. You know what I'm talking about...

Being single gets lonely.

Really lonely.

I dated a decent amount in high school. I had a steady boyfriend for most of my senior year of high school. We broke up shortly after graduation. I didn't date somebody again until my junior year of college. Sadly, that only lasted a couple of weeks.

I was dumped both times. That's terribly sad to admit - ha. But no shame!

I am now into my senior year and still nobody.

Is there something wrong with me?
Am I too picky?
Is there a reason I can't keep a guy around for more than 2 weeks?

I seriously feel like I repulse men sometimes. It's not really the best feeling in the world. It kind of ruins your confidence a little bit. And sometimes more than a little bit.

I know I am supposed to leave it in God's hands and wait until the right person comes along. But lordy, how long is that going to take?!?

Do you think God is trying to teach me patience (because of the fact I am NOT patient!)?? Do you think He's telling me to calm to heck down and things will fall into place?

I don't really know what's happening...or why I can't seem to snag a boyfriend like most college women...but, I mean, it would be nice if I could at least have some prospects.

Anybody?

Right now I am a fish in open water with no other fish in sight...and I'm not too sure I like it.