Day 1 - I am thankful for my amazing family. They are the best I could have ever hoped for.
Day 2 - I am thankful for a CAROLINA VICTORY against NC State! Go Tar Heels!
Day 3 - I am thankful for the amazing opportunities that I have been given - particularly my job now at the PlayMakers Box Office and my internship with Disney that starts in January.
Day 4 - I am thankful for my roommates - they really are the best!
Day 5 - I am thankful for thrift shopping and trading/buying used (but amazing) items - it's always a plus to save some money!
Day 6 - I am thankful for my voice and the ability to talk and sing.
Day 7 - I am thankful for the wonderful advice I am able to receive from people.
Day 8 - I am thankful for the volunteer work that I do to raise money for a good cause...even if it does involve cleaning the Dean Dome after a basketball game.
Day 9 - I am thankful for a relaxing day in by myself. Sometimes I need these to rest and focus on me for a change.
Day 10 - I'm thankful for God. Though I don't pray as often as I should I am working on my relationship with God. I am trying to make it stronger. I am trying to grow in my faith. I am trying to become a new and better person.
Day 11 - I'm thankful for the beautiful Fall weather - it's my favorite time of year!
Day 12 - I'm thankful for long nights of fun and laughter.
Day 13 - I am thankful that I never have to do another group project with fellow students again.
Day 14 - I am thankful for surprise birthday parties for friends and family. I love seeing their excitement upon entering the room.
Day 15 - I am thankful for Friday's. Friday's really are the best.
Day 16 - I am thankful for classes like "Wine & Design" who help me paint wonderful things!
Day 17 - I am thankful for etiquette dinners. I am also thankful for the fact that I was raised well enough to know how to act appropriately at these etiquette dinners.
Day 18 - I am thankful for study bibles and meditation - two things that really get my mind focused towards God.
Day 19 - I am thankful for NO MORE PAPERS in my undergraduate career! I turned in my last paper today at 26 pages.
Day 20 - I am thankful for old friends and getting to see them again. It's great to catch up and makes it seem like you haven't been apart for very long.
Day 21 - I am thankful for my EDUC 132 class and appreciate how much it has prepared me for my future.
Day 22 - I am thankful to be done with that darn presentation - I've been stressing out all week about it!
Day 23 - I am thankful for each and every experience I have gone through. They have made me learn and grow into the person I am today.
Day 24 - I am thankful for the success of my FINAL glee club concert! Even though everything was not necessarily spot on (*cough* choreography *cough*) it was still a wonderful end to my glee club career.
Day 25 - I am thankful for networking opportunities and meetings with (hopefully) future employers!
Day 26 - I am thankful for fresh hair cuts that make my hair feel so wonderful and soft.
Day 27 - I am thankful for breaks from school. Sometimes it's nice to just sit back and relax.
Day 28 - I am thankful for getting to come home for the holidays and getting to spend time with my family. My parents, my grandparents, and my siblings all together for fun! (Miss you, Jon! Wish you could have been home with us!)
Day 29 - I am thankful for my job. Even if it means I had to come home from my vacation early, it allows me to make my own money and be independent.
Day 30 - I am thankful for my wonderful father. I could not have asked for a better one. Happy Birthday, Dad! I love you!
Saturday, November 30, 2013
Friday, November 22, 2013
Dear X
Dear X,
It's been almost 1 year since I saw you last.
I wish things weren't the way they are today. I wish we could have salvaged a friendship. I wish you didn't avoid me every time I try to reach out to you. What happened to us?
You know, you were the first person I let into my heart since high school. There was this guy...I told you about him...he broke my heart. It took me 3 years to recover. The moment I met you I knew everything would be alright. I trusted you. I let you in. I opened my heart back up for the first time in 3 years...
We were happy, weren't we? Though only for a brief period of time...we were happy. I couldn't get enough of your voice...your touch. I felt my heart skip a beat every time you entered the room. I was falling for you...
I thought you felt the same.
It is alright that you didn't. I'm not angry that you didn't like me as much as I liked you. I'm not angry that you ended things between us.
I'm angry about how I reacted. I'm angry that I pushed you away. But most of all I'm angry that you won't come back. I'm angry that no matter how hard I try to reach out and show you that I've changed.. you refuse to give me a chance.
I want you back in my life. If not forever then at least long enough that I can talk to you. That I can see you face to face. That I can tell you I'm sorry for how I acted. I'm sorry for what I said to you. I'm sorry that I pushed you away.
One chance. That's all I'm asking for...
Sincerely,
Me
It's been almost 1 year since I saw you last.
I wish things weren't the way they are today. I wish we could have salvaged a friendship. I wish you didn't avoid me every time I try to reach out to you. What happened to us?
You know, you were the first person I let into my heart since high school. There was this guy...I told you about him...he broke my heart. It took me 3 years to recover. The moment I met you I knew everything would be alright. I trusted you. I let you in. I opened my heart back up for the first time in 3 years...
We were happy, weren't we? Though only for a brief period of time...we were happy. I couldn't get enough of your voice...your touch. I felt my heart skip a beat every time you entered the room. I was falling for you...
I thought you felt the same.
It is alright that you didn't. I'm not angry that you didn't like me as much as I liked you. I'm not angry that you ended things between us.
I'm angry about how I reacted. I'm angry that I pushed you away. But most of all I'm angry that you won't come back. I'm angry that no matter how hard I try to reach out and show you that I've changed.. you refuse to give me a chance.
I want you back in my life. If not forever then at least long enough that I can talk to you. That I can see you face to face. That I can tell you I'm sorry for how I acted. I'm sorry for what I said to you. I'm sorry that I pushed you away.
One chance. That's all I'm asking for...
Sincerely,
Me
Vegan Pledge - So much fail...
I kept up my vegan pledge for a solid 2 1/2 weeks. I ate 99% vegan and I did not miss or crave any of my old foods. I thought this was something I would be able to keep up...something I could consider maintaining for the rest of my life.
....then life got in the way.
Veganism is not, and may I repeat NOT, convenient. Going out to eat was constantly a struggle. Hanging out with friends was always a struggle. Not because they forced me to eat dairy and meat, but because vegan foods are not offered at many places.
I got tired of putting so much effort into my food...especially when I have had to be 100% focused on school since the end of the semester is coming up.
I still eat vegan foods 50% of the time...but I also eat whatever I want 50% of the time.
Therefore, I am not vegan.
I am not even vegetarian.
I tried, and I failed. Forgive me.
Maybe one day I will try again. Maybe when I have a job and I can afford to buy food. Maybe when I don't have to worry about school work 24/7 and actually have time to cook meals. Maybe when I have the time and energy to put the time and energy into veganism.
...yep.
Operation vegan pledge: Failed.
....then life got in the way.
Veganism is not, and may I repeat NOT, convenient. Going out to eat was constantly a struggle. Hanging out with friends was always a struggle. Not because they forced me to eat dairy and meat, but because vegan foods are not offered at many places.
I got tired of putting so much effort into my food...especially when I have had to be 100% focused on school since the end of the semester is coming up.
I still eat vegan foods 50% of the time...but I also eat whatever I want 50% of the time.
Therefore, I am not vegan.
I am not even vegetarian.
I tried, and I failed. Forgive me.
Maybe one day I will try again. Maybe when I have a job and I can afford to buy food. Maybe when I don't have to worry about school work 24/7 and actually have time to cook meals. Maybe when I have the time and energy to put the time and energy into veganism.
...yep.
Operation vegan pledge: Failed.
Saturday, November 9, 2013
The Vegan Pledge: Update - Week 1
Well, one week complete. It hasn't been too hard. I haven't had any major cravings for meet or dairy.
I obtained the list of acceptable foods to eat via the PETA website. All the foods listed are 99.9% vegan. Though most "real vegans" would not eat half of these foods, I decided that I would. The whole reason to go vegan, really, is for animal ethics...though other reasons may come into play. PETA believes that ruling out items that are 99.9% vegan would be telling producers that there is no market for these types of foods....however, in reality, foods that are 99.9% vegan are saving MANY more animals than foods are not vegan at all. There should be a market for these foods. If everybody eats foods that are 99.9% vegan there would be a significant reduction in animals harmed for unnecessary reasons.
Anyways - I've been eating a lot of the foods from this PETA list as well as 100% vegan foods. Here is what I have found...
Being vegan is not that difficult.
There are a lot more food choices that you can eat than you realize. (Oreo's are vegan!)
You will have cravings....my main one is cheese.
Vegan cheese does NOT taste the same as non-vegan cheese. I don't know if I will permanently be able to give up non-vegan cheese.
I'm not the biggest fan of tofu. The texture is just awful.
Vegan ice cream is acceptable...regular ice cream is better...but I could live with vegan ice cream.
Almond milk is delicious.
It takes effort when going out to eat - look at the menu before hand!
So yea, one week down...3 weeks to go. I don't think it will be too difficult. I haven't had any trouble this far. I am slowly but surely ruling out some foods over others, but there are still plenty of foods that I can eat that I enjoy. I made some vegan chili. It's pretty good...although, I think next time I will forgo the fake meat that I put in it.
That's all for now. I'll let you know if I run into any major challenges or if I break my streak and eat a cheeseburger. *GASP*
I obtained the list of acceptable foods to eat via the PETA website. All the foods listed are 99.9% vegan. Though most "real vegans" would not eat half of these foods, I decided that I would. The whole reason to go vegan, really, is for animal ethics...though other reasons may come into play. PETA believes that ruling out items that are 99.9% vegan would be telling producers that there is no market for these types of foods....however, in reality, foods that are 99.9% vegan are saving MANY more animals than foods are not vegan at all. There should be a market for these foods. If everybody eats foods that are 99.9% vegan there would be a significant reduction in animals harmed for unnecessary reasons.
Anyways - I've been eating a lot of the foods from this PETA list as well as 100% vegan foods. Here is what I have found...
Being vegan is not that difficult.
There are a lot more food choices that you can eat than you realize. (Oreo's are vegan!)
You will have cravings....my main one is cheese.
Vegan cheese does NOT taste the same as non-vegan cheese. I don't know if I will permanently be able to give up non-vegan cheese.
I'm not the biggest fan of tofu. The texture is just awful.
Vegan ice cream is acceptable...regular ice cream is better...but I could live with vegan ice cream.
Almond milk is delicious.
It takes effort when going out to eat - look at the menu before hand!
So yea, one week down...3 weeks to go. I don't think it will be too difficult. I haven't had any trouble this far. I am slowly but surely ruling out some foods over others, but there are still plenty of foods that I can eat that I enjoy. I made some vegan chili. It's pretty good...although, I think next time I will forgo the fake meat that I put in it.
That's all for now. I'll let you know if I run into any major challenges or if I break my streak and eat a cheeseburger. *GASP*
Saturday, November 2, 2013
Happy Halloween!
My last halloween as a college student...I don't know how I feel about this...
Everything is so bitter sweet.
On one hand, I am excited to move on with my life...on the other, I am going to miss college and all of my friends so much. HOWEVER - let me clarify - I am going to miss everything about college except for the classes and schoolwork. Haha.
Anyways, back to halloween!
This year, I was Minnie Mouse. I thought it was fitting since I will be leaving for Disney in a little over 2 months! So crazy!
There was actually a dress rehearsal scheduled for PlayMakers production of Metamorphoses on halloween, and all the PlayMakers staff are required to attend. Therefore, I spent the first part of my Halloween evening at PlayMakers watching the show, but that's ok because I got to see some of my fellow workers in their costumes!
(I am Minnie Mouse! Cute, right?)
After the show let out (a little after 9:00pm) I headed to the Battlehouse to hang out with some friends. They were hosting a "party on the lawn" kind of thing this year with Summit Church. But yea, I spent half of my night there and the other half on Franklin Street people viewing.
If you have never been to Franklin Street you should go at least once. There really are some creative costumes!
But, for the love of all things good, please do not bring young children. There are some costumes that should not even be seen by my 22 year old eyes...let alone a 6 year olds eyes.
So yea, Halloween was enjoyable. I met some cool kids, and I had a good time.
I'm just trying to do as much as I can in the little time I have left.
And on another note - here is a picture of me and my roommates (they're pretty great):
I HOPE EVERYBODY HAD A WONDERFUL AND HAPPY HALLOWEEN!
Friday, November 1, 2013
My Vegan Pledge: Pre-Pledge
I am starting a 30-day Vegan Pledge beginning tomorrow, November 2, 2013.
A Little About the Pledge (from :
What’s the Vegan Pledge? I’m glad you asked! The Vegan Pledge started in the UK. Board members of Peace Advocacy Network brought the Pledge to Philly and with great success. Non-vegan people pledge to go vegan for 30 days with the Pledge program’s support. This support includes weekly meetings consisting of cooking classes, environmental and health speakers, a personal mentor (experienced vegans), social events for support, and an incredible care package to make 30 days of being vegan that much easier. - Peace Advocacy Network
My particular pledge is part of the Triangle Vegan Pledge. We meet once a week (on Saturdays) at the UNC Law School and I have a wonderful mentor named Sylvie to guide me throughout the pledge! She actually took part in the Triangle Vegan Pledge last year and has been vegan ever since!
I decided to make this pledge because I have been wanting to live a healthier lifestyle. My eating habits are awful - I eat anything and everything - and it's time I took control of that.
But literally, my diet is probably 50% sweets at the moment.
So healthy - I know.
I thought this pledge would be a good way to kickstart my health and push me into a healthier lifestyle.
I doubt I will come out fully vegan after this challenge, but I am definitely hoping to incorporate it into my lifestyle. I wouldn't mind eating half vegan and half (something like) pescetarian. I'm not completely sure yet, but regardless, I am hoping it will be healthier than what I eat now.
I will try to post updates throughout the challenge to let everybody know how I'm doing!
Feel free to visit http://triangleveganpledge.wordpress.com/ for more information and learn about getting involved in your own challenge!
A Little About the Pledge (from :
What’s the Vegan Pledge? I’m glad you asked! The Vegan Pledge started in the UK. Board members of Peace Advocacy Network brought the Pledge to Philly and with great success. Non-vegan people pledge to go vegan for 30 days with the Pledge program’s support. This support includes weekly meetings consisting of cooking classes, environmental and health speakers, a personal mentor (experienced vegans), social events for support, and an incredible care package to make 30 days of being vegan that much easier. - Peace Advocacy Network
My particular pledge is part of the Triangle Vegan Pledge. We meet once a week (on Saturdays) at the UNC Law School and I have a wonderful mentor named Sylvie to guide me throughout the pledge! She actually took part in the Triangle Vegan Pledge last year and has been vegan ever since!
I decided to make this pledge because I have been wanting to live a healthier lifestyle. My eating habits are awful - I eat anything and everything - and it's time I took control of that.
But literally, my diet is probably 50% sweets at the moment.
So healthy - I know.
I thought this pledge would be a good way to kickstart my health and push me into a healthier lifestyle.
I doubt I will come out fully vegan after this challenge, but I am definitely hoping to incorporate it into my lifestyle. I wouldn't mind eating half vegan and half (something like) pescetarian. I'm not completely sure yet, but regardless, I am hoping it will be healthier than what I eat now.
I will try to post updates throughout the challenge to let everybody know how I'm doing!
Feel free to visit http://triangleveganpledge.wordpress.com/ for more information and learn about getting involved in your own challenge!
Thursday, October 24, 2013
DREAMS REALLY DO COME TRUE!
HEAR YE! HEAR YE! I have exciting news!
I received the e-mail yesterday and......*drum roll please*......
I GOT AN OFFER TO BE A CHARACTER PERFORMER AT WALT DISNEY WORLD IN ORLANDO, FLORIDA!
I am beyond thrilled.
I do not find out what character I will be until I get down to Florida in January, but I am 99% sure that I will be a costumed character.
One thing I do know is I'm chipmunk height! Chip & Dale anyone?
This news could not have been anymore exciting. The Disney blog was updated yesterday morning that acceptance letters have started going out. Everybody was freaking out - and I mean everybody! (I am part of the "entertainment hopefuls" group on Facebook and I could feel the nerves projecting from my computer into myself)
I did not have my laptop with me all day, so I checked my email at work (around 3:15pm) and had received nothing. I wasn't feeling too confident at this point. You could say that I was a tad discouraged.
Well, when I received my laptop and checked my e-mail around 7:00pm THE EMAIL WAS THERE!
I read, "Congratulations on your new role!" and about had a heart attack. I immediately called my mom to let her know and I couldn't stop smiling.
I literally thought that I stood no chance. I was not 100% confident in my audition, and I heard they were only filling 125-150 spots out of roughly 2,000 people that auditioned.
I mean, what rational person would be 100% confident that they would receive a role?!?
Regardless, I am so blessed and lucky to have been given this role by Disney.
This is a once in a lifetime opportunity and I cannot wait to begin my journey!
I received the e-mail yesterday and......*drum roll please*......
I GOT AN OFFER TO BE A CHARACTER PERFORMER AT WALT DISNEY WORLD IN ORLANDO, FLORIDA!
I am beyond thrilled.
I do not find out what character I will be until I get down to Florida in January, but I am 99% sure that I will be a costumed character.
One thing I do know is I'm chipmunk height! Chip & Dale anyone?
This news could not have been anymore exciting. The Disney blog was updated yesterday morning that acceptance letters have started going out. Everybody was freaking out - and I mean everybody! (I am part of the "entertainment hopefuls" group on Facebook and I could feel the nerves projecting from my computer into myself)
I did not have my laptop with me all day, so I checked my email at work (around 3:15pm) and had received nothing. I wasn't feeling too confident at this point. You could say that I was a tad discouraged.
Well, when I received my laptop and checked my e-mail around 7:00pm THE EMAIL WAS THERE!
I read, "Congratulations on your new role!" and about had a heart attack. I immediately called my mom to let her know and I couldn't stop smiling.
I literally thought that I stood no chance. I was not 100% confident in my audition, and I heard they were only filling 125-150 spots out of roughly 2,000 people that auditioned.
I mean, what rational person would be 100% confident that they would receive a role?!?
Regardless, I am so blessed and lucky to have been given this role by Disney.
This is a once in a lifetime opportunity and I cannot wait to begin my journey!
Monday, October 21, 2013
Singing the Glee Club Blues...
Glee club.
The epitome of my demise.
Ok, I suppose I'm being a tad bit dramatic....which I know is hard to believe. Me? Dramatic? Not a chance.
I am a part of the women's glee club here at UNC Chapel Hill. We meet every Monday and Wednesday from 5:15-6:45pm.
Glee club is supposed to be my relaxation time. It's supposed to be a time where I can go and sing and enjoy the company of my friends.
Sadly, that's not how glee club is at all.
Glee club is...well...how do I say this?
Stressful. Unhappy. Miserable.
Now, don't get me wrong. I enjoy glee club. I hate having to go to glee club, but once I'm there I enjoy myself enough. The women in glee club are some of the most amazing friends I've met on campus. I also love to sing and this is my chance to go and belt out as loud as I want without any hesitation (except when the music is marked piano of course!)
However - with the perks come the tragic moments...most of these tragic moments are headed by our conductor.
She is a killer of all things joyful.
Any fun you try to have during class is shut down immediately. FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS! SING THE MUSIC NOW! MEMORIZE! ORDERS ORDERS ORDERS!
I am all for learning music correctly, singing beautifully, and all things leading to our concert at the end of the semester...but sometimes you have to let people enjoy themselves. I mean, it is called GLEE club - which is pretty much the equivalent of happy club. I am more likely to remember music that I enjoy singing than music that is miserable to even think about
Sadly, our conductor doesn't see things that way.
I understand there has to be order in the classroom. I understand there has to be some focus and control at moments to really get the music down accurately and to shape and morph the music into something beautiful.
I have been in choruses since I was 7 years old. I understand how they work.
There is no happy medium in our classroom. There is no work hard, play harder (or play hard, work harder if you're into that).
Glee is a dictatorship. And our conductor is the boss.
What she says goes...and sadly, fun does not go.
The epitome of my demise.
Ok, I suppose I'm being a tad bit dramatic....which I know is hard to believe. Me? Dramatic? Not a chance.
I am a part of the women's glee club here at UNC Chapel Hill. We meet every Monday and Wednesday from 5:15-6:45pm.
Glee club is supposed to be my relaxation time. It's supposed to be a time where I can go and sing and enjoy the company of my friends.
Sadly, that's not how glee club is at all.
Glee club is...well...how do I say this?
Stressful. Unhappy. Miserable.
Now, don't get me wrong. I enjoy glee club. I hate having to go to glee club, but once I'm there I enjoy myself enough. The women in glee club are some of the most amazing friends I've met on campus. I also love to sing and this is my chance to go and belt out as loud as I want without any hesitation (except when the music is marked piano of course!)
However - with the perks come the tragic moments...most of these tragic moments are headed by our conductor.
She is a killer of all things joyful.
Any fun you try to have during class is shut down immediately. FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS! SING THE MUSIC NOW! MEMORIZE! ORDERS ORDERS ORDERS!
I am all for learning music correctly, singing beautifully, and all things leading to our concert at the end of the semester...but sometimes you have to let people enjoy themselves. I mean, it is called GLEE club - which is pretty much the equivalent of happy club. I am more likely to remember music that I enjoy singing than music that is miserable to even think about
Sadly, our conductor doesn't see things that way.
I understand there has to be order in the classroom. I understand there has to be some focus and control at moments to really get the music down accurately and to shape and morph the music into something beautiful.
I have been in choruses since I was 7 years old. I understand how they work.
There is no happy medium in our classroom. There is no work hard, play harder (or play hard, work harder if you're into that).
Glee is a dictatorship. And our conductor is the boss.
What she says goes...and sadly, fun does not go.
Friday, October 18, 2013
Near Death Experience
I haven't written a post in a while. I've thought about it...I've planned to do it...but let's be real - I'm lazy.
Anyways - I figured I would tell you guys about my near death experience that happened last Saturday.
It was a normal, lazy Saturday. Really lazy actually but that's not the point.
My friends and I were going to go to a corn maze in Sanford that evening. I volunteered to drive basically because nobody else would (mistake #1).
We left around 6:00pm to head to the corn maze which was about an hour away. I was following my friend because he knew where he was going (mistake #2). My friend had his truck full and I had my car full.
I hate, hate, HATE following people. I should have just gotten the address and went.
But seriously...following people is literally the worst, and let me tell you why.
We made it the whole way. The whole way of slow driving and inconsistent speeds. I don't know if my friend was making sure not to lose me but it was freaking annoying. We went 50mph in a 55 mph zone...then he would speed up to 70...back down to 50. Seriously?!? Ugh.
And then there is me...mimicking his every move because I can't pass him. I didn't know where I was going!
We get all the way there and he misses the left turn into the corn maze.
We pull into a gas station to turn around.
Instead of going to the light like a NORMAL PERSON would do, my friend just goes to a left turn against traffic (aka: a 4 lane highway). We are sitting there forever....he must be waiting for an opening for us to get through. Right?
Wrong.
...this is where I put myself and my car of people in danger.
I saw the light turn red for the main stretch of road. Ok. It must be our time to go. My friend goes, and me being stupid decide to go right after him. Again, I made the dumb assumption that he was waiting for a gap.
I go without looking (mistake #3) -- and about get nailed by 2 cars. 1 in each lane. I FLOOR IT! I mean, it was too late...I was going...I was sticking out in the road. I had to go.
I think we literally missed both cars by 1 yard. I probably could have reached out and touched them.
The whole car screamed. I didn't scream...I was too focused on trying to not end up dead.
Long story short we made it through. I got grief from a guy in the backseat...which really helps a flustered driver calm down, you know? I was so mad because he acted like I did it on purpose. I just want to be like - yes, I meant to turn out in front of 2 cars. That's how I always drive. I like to take chances.
I apologized to everybody more than necessary but I felt awful. I mean, I didn't just put myself in danger, I put their's in danger as well and that is not ok.
But we made it to the corn maze in one piece...barely.
We ended up having a good/fun night, and everybody allowed me to drive them home afterwards (I used my GPS on the way back so I didn't have to follow anybody).
God was on my side that night and I am thankful each and every day.
And to the passengers of my car - I am still so sorry. I was careless. It won't happen again.
Anyways - I figured I would tell you guys about my near death experience that happened last Saturday.
It was a normal, lazy Saturday. Really lazy actually but that's not the point.
My friends and I were going to go to a corn maze in Sanford that evening. I volunteered to drive basically because nobody else would (mistake #1).
We left around 6:00pm to head to the corn maze which was about an hour away. I was following my friend because he knew where he was going (mistake #2). My friend had his truck full and I had my car full.
I hate, hate, HATE following people. I should have just gotten the address and went.
But seriously...following people is literally the worst, and let me tell you why.
We made it the whole way. The whole way of slow driving and inconsistent speeds. I don't know if my friend was making sure not to lose me but it was freaking annoying. We went 50mph in a 55 mph zone...then he would speed up to 70...back down to 50. Seriously?!? Ugh.
And then there is me...mimicking his every move because I can't pass him. I didn't know where I was going!
We get all the way there and he misses the left turn into the corn maze.
We pull into a gas station to turn around.
Instead of going to the light like a NORMAL PERSON would do, my friend just goes to a left turn against traffic (aka: a 4 lane highway). We are sitting there forever....he must be waiting for an opening for us to get through. Right?
Wrong.
...this is where I put myself and my car of people in danger.
I saw the light turn red for the main stretch of road. Ok. It must be our time to go. My friend goes, and me being stupid decide to go right after him. Again, I made the dumb assumption that he was waiting for a gap.
I go without looking (mistake #3) -- and about get nailed by 2 cars. 1 in each lane. I FLOOR IT! I mean, it was too late...I was going...I was sticking out in the road. I had to go.
I think we literally missed both cars by 1 yard. I probably could have reached out and touched them.
The whole car screamed. I didn't scream...I was too focused on trying to not end up dead.
Long story short we made it through. I got grief from a guy in the backseat...which really helps a flustered driver calm down, you know? I was so mad because he acted like I did it on purpose. I just want to be like - yes, I meant to turn out in front of 2 cars. That's how I always drive. I like to take chances.
I apologized to everybody more than necessary but I felt awful. I mean, I didn't just put myself in danger, I put their's in danger as well and that is not ok.
But we made it to the corn maze in one piece...barely.
We ended up having a good/fun night, and everybody allowed me to drive them home afterwards (I used my GPS on the way back so I didn't have to follow anybody).
God was on my side that night and I am thankful each and every day.
And to the passengers of my car - I am still so sorry. I was careless. It won't happen again.
Tuesday, October 8, 2013
Living the Disney Dream
For those who do not know I have been wanting to participate in the Disney College Program since I was a freshman in college. However, I haven't applied up until now because I didn't want to take a semester off of college or get pushed back (in terms of graduation).
Well, as everybody knows, I graduate in December. Therefore, I thought this would be the perfect opportunity to apply for the college program for the spring! I will use it as my "study abroad" except I'll already be done with college.
September 6, 2013 - Applied for Program
September 6, 2013 - Had Web-Based Interview
September 11, 2013 - Had Phone Interview
September 25, 2013 - GOT ACCEPTED TO THE PROGRAM!
Obviously I have waited a while to write this post. This was for a couple of reasons:
1) I did not accept the internship right away
2) I was weighing the pros and cons of taking this internship over a full time job
3) I had a phone interview set up for a full-time job at another company in Raleigh
Basically, I didn't want to commit without considering all of my options. Even though my heart was in this internship and I have been wanting to do it for 3 years, I wanted to make a smart decision.
Here are the facts:
I was offered a role with Attractions and for the spring advantage term (January to August).
I officially ACCEPTED the role on Oct 1, 2013
I picked my arrival and departure dates: Jan 13, 2014 - Aug 1, 2014
I am now a part of 5 different facebook groups related to the program:
1) Disney College Program Spring/Spring Advantage 2014
2) Disney College Program Accepted Spring Advantage 2014
3) DCP Spring/Spring Advantage 2014 Attractions
4) DCP Spring Advantage January 13th Arrivals
5) Disney College Program Spring/Spring Advantage 2014 Entertainment
What?!?
Entertainment?!?
Yes. Yes I am part of the entertainment group. More to come on that later.
Well, as everybody knows, I graduate in December. Therefore, I thought this would be the perfect opportunity to apply for the college program for the spring! I will use it as my "study abroad" except I'll already be done with college.
September 6, 2013 - Applied for Program
September 6, 2013 - Had Web-Based Interview
September 11, 2013 - Had Phone Interview
September 25, 2013 - GOT ACCEPTED TO THE PROGRAM!
Obviously I have waited a while to write this post. This was for a couple of reasons:
1) I did not accept the internship right away
2) I was weighing the pros and cons of taking this internship over a full time job
3) I had a phone interview set up for a full-time job at another company in Raleigh
Basically, I didn't want to commit without considering all of my options. Even though my heart was in this internship and I have been wanting to do it for 3 years, I wanted to make a smart decision.
Here are the facts:
I was offered a role with Attractions and for the spring advantage term (January to August).
I officially ACCEPTED the role on Oct 1, 2013
I picked my arrival and departure dates: Jan 13, 2014 - Aug 1, 2014
I am now a part of 5 different facebook groups related to the program:
1) Disney College Program Spring/Spring Advantage 2014
2) Disney College Program Accepted Spring Advantage 2014
3) DCP Spring/Spring Advantage 2014 Attractions
4) DCP Spring Advantage January 13th Arrivals
5) Disney College Program Spring/Spring Advantage 2014 Entertainment
What?!?
Entertainment?!?
Yes. Yes I am part of the entertainment group. More to come on that later.
Thursday, September 26, 2013
3 Months Left
I've been thinking about my life and my future lately. Perhaps this is because I'm a month into senior year. Perhaps this is because my graduation date is rapidly approaching.
I graduate in less than 3 months.
Make that 80 days to be exact.
Make that 43 days of classes left.
Did I say 43 days of classes? Why yes, yes I did.
Now that may seem like a while but it's not. It's not at all. 43 days? That will go by so quickly that I'll wonder where the time went.
I mean, I've already had over a month of classes and I feel like I just started back to school yesterday. If one month has felt like 2 days then the next 3 months will feel even faster once they've passed.
I don't know if that makes any sense to you...but it does to me.
I've always said that I am tired of school. That I am ready for real life. That school has never been a thing that I would hate to be done with. (I am referring to those people who come to college and never want to leave - I am not one of those people)
Now, that is still true...for the most part. I am tired of school. I am not a school person. I do not want to go to graduate school. It's not that I am an unintelligent person. I would like to think that I am pretty smart. However, I am ready to be done with pointless classes that hold no interest to me...to be done with homework assignments that aren't helping me progress in my life...
Now...about that little part about me being ready for life...
This is what scares me the most. It's not that I don't think I'm ready. I think I have all the tools I need to be successful.
What scares me is the unknown.
I am so content in my little school bubble. I have my friends. I have my living space. I don't have to worry about something changing significantly from today to tomorrow. I know I'll wake up tomorrow, see faces I'm familiar and comfortable with, and I'll feel content.
That's all going to change once I graduate.
Once I graduate I am going to be thrown into the world of adulthood. I will truly be on my own. I might not be in a location that I know or am familiar with. I might not be surrounded by people who have been supportive of me for my entire life.
What am I going to do once I'm forced to make new friends (or risk being a loner)? I don't even know how to start. Do I go to a bar? Do I wander around the city aimlessly? Do I join an organization? Perhaps a church group?
Seriously guys, I have no idea what I'm doing.
Life is sneaking up on me and I'm starting to freak out. It's hitting me that I'll have to create a new life and I don't know if I'll be any good at it.
Here's to hoping I don't suck?
Sunday, September 22, 2013
[Ex]boyfriends Anonymous
Hello. My name is Jessica and I have a problem.
[*everybody chime in* Hello, Jessica]
I have a problem. My problem? I can't let go.
This is kind of in reference to past relationships/love interests...but not really...but kinda.
I can let go of the relationships I've been in. I don't want to be back in those relationships (for the most part - ha). There is a reason why I am no longer in those relationships.
However, that aside, I obsess with this need to be accepted - for this need to be "friends" with these past relationships/love interests. I want them to treat me normally. I want to be able to talk to them without feeling like I'm being a bother. I want to be able to ask questions without them thinking I have ulterior motives.
But seriously. Just because I'm talking to you doesn't mean I want to get back together with you! Just answer my question...respond to my statement...anything...
Now, don't get me wrong, there are people I have dated who I no longer speak to. Being friends just wasn't in the cards for us. We tried. It led to a lot of negative feelings. Now we don't speak and things are better off that way. It works for us.
However - these other guys...when they don't have girlfriends they talk to me (or at least humor me by responding to my questions/comments). But when they get girlfriends it is like I don't exist anymore. They don't want me looking in their direction. It's like they think I am going to pounce on them....through the computer?
I don't know. I feel like I need to just let them all go. Maybe it's not in the cards for any of us.
It will upset me. I know it will.
But if they told me that it's not in the cards for us then I would let them go. I would leave them alone and they could live their lives without me.
Just say the word and I'm gone.
[*everybody chime in* Hello, Jessica]
I have a problem. My problem? I can't let go.
This is kind of in reference to past relationships/love interests...but not really...but kinda.
I can let go of the relationships I've been in. I don't want to be back in those relationships (for the most part - ha). There is a reason why I am no longer in those relationships.
However, that aside, I obsess with this need to be accepted - for this need to be "friends" with these past relationships/love interests. I want them to treat me normally. I want to be able to talk to them without feeling like I'm being a bother. I want to be able to ask questions without them thinking I have ulterior motives.
But seriously. Just because I'm talking to you doesn't mean I want to get back together with you! Just answer my question...respond to my statement...anything...
Now, don't get me wrong, there are people I have dated who I no longer speak to. Being friends just wasn't in the cards for us. We tried. It led to a lot of negative feelings. Now we don't speak and things are better off that way. It works for us.
However - these other guys...when they don't have girlfriends they talk to me (or at least humor me by responding to my questions/comments). But when they get girlfriends it is like I don't exist anymore. They don't want me looking in their direction. It's like they think I am going to pounce on them....through the computer?
I don't know. I feel like I need to just let them all go. Maybe it's not in the cards for any of us.
It will upset me. I know it will.
But if they told me that it's not in the cards for us then I would let them go. I would leave them alone and they could live their lives without me.
Just say the word and I'm gone.
Monday, September 16, 2013
The Single Life..
You know - I have a lot of thoughts when it comes to my love life...or for those who know me, my lack thereof...
I sometimes wonder why I am single.
But mostly I wonder why I've been single for so long...
Don't get me wrong. I don't need a man. It's not like I can't function without one...but sometimes it's just nice to have someone. It's nice to have somebody to talk to. To hang out with. To say goodnight to before you go to sleep. To go on dates with. You know what I'm talking about...
Being single gets lonely.
Really lonely.
I dated a decent amount in high school. I had a steady boyfriend for most of my senior year of high school. We broke up shortly after graduation. I didn't date somebody again until my junior year of college. Sadly, that only lasted a couple of weeks.
I was dumped both times. That's terribly sad to admit - ha. But no shame!
I am now into my senior year and still nobody.
Is there something wrong with me?
Am I too picky?
Is there a reason I can't keep a guy around for more than 2 weeks?
I seriously feel like I repulse men sometimes. It's not really the best feeling in the world. It kind of ruins your confidence a little bit. And sometimes more than a little bit.
I know I am supposed to leave it in God's hands and wait until the right person comes along. But lordy, how long is that going to take?!?
Do you think God is trying to teach me patience (because of the fact I am NOT patient!)?? Do you think He's telling me to calm to heck down and things will fall into place?
I don't really know what's happening...or why I can't seem to snag a boyfriend like most college women...but, I mean, it would be nice if I could at least have some prospects.
Anybody?
Right now I am a fish in open water with no other fish in sight...and I'm not too sure I like it.
I sometimes wonder why I am single.
But mostly I wonder why I've been single for so long...
Don't get me wrong. I don't need a man. It's not like I can't function without one...but sometimes it's just nice to have someone. It's nice to have somebody to talk to. To hang out with. To say goodnight to before you go to sleep. To go on dates with. You know what I'm talking about...
Being single gets lonely.
Really lonely.
I dated a decent amount in high school. I had a steady boyfriend for most of my senior year of high school. We broke up shortly after graduation. I didn't date somebody again until my junior year of college. Sadly, that only lasted a couple of weeks.
I was dumped both times. That's terribly sad to admit - ha. But no shame!
I am now into my senior year and still nobody.
Is there something wrong with me?
Am I too picky?
Is there a reason I can't keep a guy around for more than 2 weeks?
I seriously feel like I repulse men sometimes. It's not really the best feeling in the world. It kind of ruins your confidence a little bit. And sometimes more than a little bit.
I know I am supposed to leave it in God's hands and wait until the right person comes along. But lordy, how long is that going to take?!?
Do you think God is trying to teach me patience (because of the fact I am NOT patient!)?? Do you think He's telling me to calm to heck down and things will fall into place?
I don't really know what's happening...or why I can't seem to snag a boyfriend like most college women...but, I mean, it would be nice if I could at least have some prospects.
Anybody?
Right now I am a fish in open water with no other fish in sight...and I'm not too sure I like it.
Saturday, September 14, 2013
Real Life? What?
Tonight I applied for two real jobs. Not summer jobs. Not internships. Real, full-time, gotta pay the bills jobs. Is this really happening?
As you probably know from my last post I graduate in December. That means real life is quickly approaching. I am so ready for real life that I typed "fastly approaching" instead of quickly. But no worries, spell check hurriedly informed me that fastly is not actually a word.
....yea, English and grammar are not my forte. All of my friends know that I can't even speak it very well. I am always trying to make up new words. Sadly, they don't seem to catch on.
One day.
But anyways, back to my reason for writing this post - jobs.
I never thought I would be this stressed/freaked out applying for jobs. It's never been this difficult before. Now I have to actually consider if I would want to work for a company for more than a summer's length of time. Now I have to consider what I want to spend a significant amount of my time doing, where I want to be living, what benefits I'll be offered...
TALK ABOUT STRESSFUL!
I don't want to name the companies I've applied for specifically, but I can tell you that they are located in the Raleigh area and both involve the sales realm. I think I'd be pretty good at sales. I like to talk. Sales people get to talk. Good match? Who knows.
....what is this adult life? bills? what?
Also - one of the [two] jobs I applied for is to a company I met at the career fair at UNC this past week. The representatives I talked to were AWESOME and they made their company sound like the BOMB DIGITY. I liked them. I think they liked me. Fingers crossed that I at least score an interview from that interaction. YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO HIRE ME!
As you probably know from my last post I graduate in December. That means real life is quickly approaching. I am so ready for real life that I typed "fastly approaching" instead of quickly. But no worries, spell check hurriedly informed me that fastly is not actually a word.
....yea, English and grammar are not my forte. All of my friends know that I can't even speak it very well. I am always trying to make up new words. Sadly, they don't seem to catch on.
One day.
But anyways, back to my reason for writing this post - jobs.
I never thought I would be this stressed/freaked out applying for jobs. It's never been this difficult before. Now I have to actually consider if I would want to work for a company for more than a summer's length of time. Now I have to consider what I want to spend a significant amount of my time doing, where I want to be living, what benefits I'll be offered...
TALK ABOUT STRESSFUL!
I don't want to name the companies I've applied for specifically, but I can tell you that they are located in the Raleigh area and both involve the sales realm. I think I'd be pretty good at sales. I like to talk. Sales people get to talk. Good match? Who knows.
....what is this adult life? bills? what?
Also - one of the [two] jobs I applied for is to a company I met at the career fair at UNC this past week. The representatives I talked to were AWESOME and they made their company sound like the BOMB DIGITY. I liked them. I think they liked me. Fingers crossed that I at least score an interview from that interaction. YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO HIRE ME!
Monday, September 9, 2013
Thoughts on being a senior.
I have never been a writer, nor will I ever claim to be, but sometimes I have thoughts/feelings/emotions that I want to write down...so here we are.
I write this as a sit alone in my living room. My two roommates are asleep (considering it is close to 1:00am). There is nothing but silence, and the sound of my typing, around me. It is moments like tonight when I get lost in my thoughts and when I ponder about my present and my future.
I am a senior in college. I am a senior at THE University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill.
Where has the time gone?
These past 3 years have been filled with joy, pain, sorrow... College, for me, was better than high school in a lot of ways, but it was also worse in some ways too.
In high school I played sports...I acted in plays...I did all of the things I loved to do that simply went away when I came to college. I no longer participated in sports (unless you count the random intramural game here and there), and I never got involved in shows. I have helped out with shows (costuming, props, publicity, etc), but I have not acted in anything and acting is what I love. Have I been missing out?
On the other hand, college has been filled with some of the most amazing people that I have been blessed with meeting. I wouldn't say I was popular in high school, or in college for that matter, but I feel more accepted in college than I ever did in high school. I feel like I am able to be true to myself and explore who I am supposed to be without being judged. College was the much needed step I was hoping for to help me redefine myself and become who I know I could be.
So there you have it. I was more involved in activities in high school, but I became more true to myself and my personhood (is that a word?) in college. It appears you have to give up some things to propel yourself forward to where you know you need to be.
But, you know, now I'm ready for the next jump. Most people are scared for graduation and the idea of working/living in the real world, and in some ways I am, but for the most part I am ready. However, I am going to cherish the time I have left. I know it will go faster than I could ever imagine.
So here is to the last few months of my college career. Here's to the last few months of making the most of my time at Carolina. Here's to living in the moment.
I write this as a sit alone in my living room. My two roommates are asleep (considering it is close to 1:00am). There is nothing but silence, and the sound of my typing, around me. It is moments like tonight when I get lost in my thoughts and when I ponder about my present and my future.
I am a senior in college. I am a senior at THE University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill.
Where has the time gone?
These past 3 years have been filled with joy, pain, sorrow... College, for me, was better than high school in a lot of ways, but it was also worse in some ways too.
In high school I played sports...I acted in plays...I did all of the things I loved to do that simply went away when I came to college. I no longer participated in sports (unless you count the random intramural game here and there), and I never got involved in shows. I have helped out with shows (costuming, props, publicity, etc), but I have not acted in anything and acting is what I love. Have I been missing out?
On the other hand, college has been filled with some of the most amazing people that I have been blessed with meeting. I wouldn't say I was popular in high school, or in college for that matter, but I feel more accepted in college than I ever did in high school. I feel like I am able to be true to myself and explore who I am supposed to be without being judged. College was the much needed step I was hoping for to help me redefine myself and become who I know I could be.
So there you have it. I was more involved in activities in high school, but I became more true to myself and my personhood (is that a word?) in college. It appears you have to give up some things to propel yourself forward to where you know you need to be.
But, you know, now I'm ready for the next jump. Most people are scared for graduation and the idea of working/living in the real world, and in some ways I am, but for the most part I am ready. However, I am going to cherish the time I have left. I know it will go faster than I could ever imagine.
So here is to the last few months of my college career. Here's to the last few months of making the most of my time at Carolina. Here's to living in the moment.
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