[Ex]boyfriends Anonymous

Hello. My name is Jessica and I have a problem.

[*everybody chime in* Hello, Jessica]

I have a problem. My problem? I can't let go.

This is kind of in reference to past relationships/love interests...but not really...but kinda.

I can let go of the relationships I've been in. I don't want to be back in those relationships (for the most part - ha). There is a reason why I am no longer in those relationships.

However, that aside, I obsess with this need to be accepted - for this need to be "friends" with these past relationships/love interests. I want them to treat me normally. I want to be able to talk to them without feeling like I'm being a bother. I want to be able to ask questions without them thinking I have ulterior motives.

But seriously. Just because I'm talking to you doesn't mean I want to get back together with you! Just answer my question...respond to my statement...anything...

Now, don't get me wrong, there are people I have dated who I no longer speak to. Being friends just wasn't in the cards for us. We tried. It led to a lot of negative feelings. Now we don't speak and things are better off that way. It works for us.

However - these other guys...when they don't have girlfriends they talk to me (or at least humor me by responding to my questions/comments). But when they get girlfriends it is like I don't exist anymore. They don't want me looking in their direction. It's like they think I am going to pounce on them....through the computer?

I don't know. I feel like I need to just let them all go. Maybe it's not in the cards for any of us.

It will upset me. I know it will.

But if they told me that it's not in the cards for us then I would let them go. I would leave them alone and they could live their lives without me.

Just say the word and I'm gone.